I did that long swim I love to do just now
I love the feeling of the cold smooth water
And being totally alone
and able to think about everything
and nothing
but on the way back the wind was strong and waves were tough
slapping me in the face
relentlessly
like a problem that won’t leave me alone
I started to cry
because that is what we do when there is no distraction
and no one around
but crying and swimming is hard
so I lay on my back
and let it go.