Sometimes when I write I feel no one is there and this is good. It feels un self-conscious
But sometimes when I write I wonder how you will feel.
I think about you and how you will interpret what I say.
Sometimes I know you will find me obnoxious, other days I will touch you, speak for you, inspire you, offend you or piss you off. Sometimes maybe I embarrass my family a little.
Sometimes I wonder will I ever regret so much sharing?
But most days I do it because it feels so good- like a gift to myself.
And then, every now and then, I get a note like this
“I have been following your blog for about a year now, and cannot tell you how much it has meant to me as I have navigated through an unexpected separation. It’s funny, I’m sure people tell you all the time, but I feel like I know you, and so much of what you have written has come into my inbox exactly when it was needed! I’m sure you have no idea how many lives you have impacted in sharing your story… but surely count mine as one of them!
In a time where I have felt very alone, reading about the experiences of someone who has gone through this journey and come out better on the other side has been a great source of inspiration. There are days when it has been very tough to imagine anything positive that could come out of this scenario, and the simple act of reading about someone who seems to have been able to rebuild in such a strong way, and who hasn’t lost her sense of humour along the way, has been a great motivator. Never question whether your words are “landing”… I suspect they are landing in a much more far reaching manner than you know. “
Thank you CB. It means so much to know this.
Nancy – I too echo the sentiments of writer ‘CB’. I laugh and cry at your blog. I find myself opening up my email – hoping there will be an entry from you for me to learn from, reflect upon or giggle about. I too am moving thru my own journey and feel that I have come out on the other side of that dark dark place better – back to being me. I thank you for your help and support thru this. It is not always easy but as my great grandmother said – ‘Nothing’s so bad that couldn’t be worse’. This I am finding is so true. There is always someone out there with a story that is worse than mine and I have so much to be thankful for and this journey has helped me to appreciate that.
Keep writing – I love it.
Debbie
I love what your grandmother said, Debbie! Bang on.
Thank you for reading and commenting.
So glad to hear that you are well.