unbrokenness

 

I don’t know where to begin with the really cool things that have been happening lately. I want to tell you all of it. I am having such a hard time deciding what to leave out to not make you bored or cranky, so I have decided to tell you all of it.

Get comfortable.

I had a dream in the summer that came out of nowhere – that this teacher who taught my eldest 3 years ago who I have not seen since – who I hardly knew at all- might somehow be the daughter of an old client from 20  years ago, who I would only ever see during  market in New York. I had met the  daughter once or twice – when she was 10 and I remember her confidence and how she and her mom adored each other and how she wore two different  running shoes – one red and one blue.

Soon after, I left work on a Friday and had my first baby on the Monday, never went back there and lost touch with this client from the west coast who was really a  friend. That was 19 years ago.

Then I had the dream just this summer

Then I forgot the dream , the way we do when they make no sense in our awake lives.

Then 6 weeks later I walked by this teacher (the daughter, now grown!) and seeing her face reminded me of the dream and I said “Jennifer, is there any chance you are from Victoria?” This would have been a strange opening question except I was sure the way you are about some things- even though I had only met her two times when she was a child. She said yes. And I said – Is your mom Ginny? She said yes. We are both speaking in a high pitch now and our faces and necks are bright red with excitement- I said ‘I am Nancy.’

This allowed me to find her mom and reach out to her.

Her mom began to tell me her story of the last 20 years via email. I shared my blogs with both of them as a way of letting them understand my story.

The daughter sent me a note to see if I could come to morning prayers this week at the school- she told me she was speaking and that I had inspired her through our serendipitous reconnection and this blog. I think it reminded her of her unbrokenness and  that she wanted to dispel some myths about the children of divorce.

There are a those times in life when we are alive in ways that make the other moments seem sleepy. This was one of those days- me sitting there while she spoke to hundreds of teenage girls and me. And my teenage girl.

I wanted this speech for my children. I wanted this speech for this school of girls. I had wanted this speech for myself.

I had wanted it for the world.

Did my dream relocate this person to me for that reason? I can only think so.

Tomorrow I will share some of it with you.

In the meantime, click here for I am not a robot- the song that accompanied the speech

 

 

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