Hey Lance-Here is the thing about lying-you can’t decide to be truthful – you either are or you are not. There is no convenience with truth it is just an imperative or it is not. If you come clean don’t expect the world to forget all the moments of gross indignation, public and private attack, lawsuits threatened, executed and won, bulldozing people who tried to tell the truth and correct an incorrection, or you passing the other guy because of a synthetic advantage you may have had over him.
The thing about the truth when it is finally told, one is never sure if it is told from fear, from overriding knowledge that you have been found out, or that finally you can’t bear the guilt of it or the shame and it is more about you and your needs than the truth after all.
Truth has a threshhold and when you step from it to the other side – the lying side- you forget everything, what is wrong and what is right, who you are and what you stand for, you are lost in the other land as you begin to fully believe your lie through spectacular justification. It is a land where you dwell alone isolated by your word that no longer has any value and all your currency in the world is reduced forever. Nothing that comes out of your mouth again is pure and nothing you do again is pure. The you that you were born with is dead and the lie becomes greater than the sum of your parts.