her 11th cocktail and how I was useful

I am so fascinated by happiness and what brings us to it.

(Note the way this is phrased- it does not come to us, happiness is not passive, we go to it, we bring ourselves to it, it is a journey, not an affliction or a bit of luck)

I keep circling back to things/people that make me feel alive.

Feeling useful keeps coming up for me.

This weekend has been very happy for me. I have felt very useful.

When we are useful we share what is ours. We share our gifts, we share our time, we share our skills.

Look at your life and what you are doing when you feel most alive. What do people flock to you for?

No one ever comes to me to help with long division,  directions or deep discussions on lying politics. Don’t give me a manual to read or Ikea furniture to assemble. I will be creative with it and you will regret it forever.  This is not my stuff.

My stuff is creative, it is humour, it is loving you, it is fun. Give me your muck. I can help you sort  through it. You might even find it beautiful.

This weekend I had a house guest.

I shared my warm house. There was beautiful activity in and out. She loved the energy. I made good food. I made her laugh. I made her smile. I made her dream. I gave her the gift of perspective.

I (she says) spoiled her.

She let me.

She came to me with a tummy pack with her chemo cocktail pumping right into a hole in her skin above her chest.

It is her 11th cocktail.

She is ready for it to be over.

Right here in my house I had a brave angel all weekend. I got to feel useful.

And she was so useful to me.

Next time you need anything, let people in in the way they are good, it will bring you both up.

 

 

I feel on top of the world  when I am creative. It is lifeblood. Take a peek at my time on top of the world with Fraser yesterday

 

 

8 thoughts on “her 11th cocktail and how I was useful

  1. Nancy, you are an incredible friend who allows people to let you help them. That is your true gift.

  2. Nancy, What a beautiful experience-to share your light, your gifts, your time with one another. Truly a weekend to remember and treasure.

    • Thank you Patti- It was a very special feeling. I want more opportunities like this! xn

  3. Nancy, your post hit home as tomorrow marks my 9 year birthday from my own chemo cocktail stage (also delivered via fanny pack and Hickman line). I was blessed with the support of friends, many of whom read this blog. Cheers to you and those others who share your gifts so generously. The gift of joy and of friendship is truly special.

    • oh Jen- so brave, so hard. Such a good ending to your story. I did not know xxoo

  4. We can all learn from this beautiful act of kindness and the importance of the simple things in life. And it is interesting how happiness is right out there for all of us to take full advantage of and be useful at the same time!

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