sleeplessness

Did I replace the battery in the smoke detector? Why is he drooling? Is he sad or lonely? Will she love University? Are we out of toilet paper? Am I cold or too hot? Did I buy those tickets? Are my children going to be ok? Better than ok? OMG that was so funny today. Is that a lump in my breast? Did I turn off the kettle? Should I make an apartment in the basement and rent it out? Was it someone’s birthday today and I forgot to wish them well? Is the back door double bolted?Am I working towards all my dreams? Is what I am doing right? Golly, that coffee was strong. I will never get everything done? How does everyone else do it? I don’t want to be everyone else.What if no one thinks art is worthwhile? How much money out and how much in today? Yay, it is almost dress season. I should not have said that to him. Am I really going to be 50? I need to have more dinner parties. Did  I hurt her feelings? I talk too much. I need to take up meditation. We are out of milk. I love my life. I can’t believe I got that speeding ticket. And those nasty demerit points. Must fight it. Need to pick up that thing from that place. Try listening for a change, Nance.Is there clean underwear for everyone for tomorrow? Why is there so much hate in the world? Gosh that movie was good. Need to call my mom. I eat too much sugar. Why is my life bulging at the seams? I forgot to really thank them for everything. I take up too much space everywhere. I am losing touch with  him. Everything is up to me. Gulp.  Did I listen to my kids today or fake it? Did they listen to me or fake it? We need to have more fun. I forgot to floss again. I have no idea what day of the week it is. Yikes, $958 for that? I need to go through this house with a garbage bag and just toss stuff.  Why are we holding onto that, for example? More yoga soon. I need to cut my hair. I should not sleep on my front even if I love it.We never play board games like other families. I need to send out that email for art camp, the one for that new program and a follow up for the spring session. Am I saving enough? Jesus, you know the answer to that. If all the pencils in the house were sharp and tall, I would be so happy. Need to finish tax stuff asap. What could I be good at but I don’t know it yet? What if I never know it? I should really go after more business. I need to be more patient. Are we eating enough of the dark green veggies? I need to teach my children more important lessons. How can I be more organised? I drink too much coffee. What was that sound outside? What if I grow old alone? What should I wear tomorrow? I miss her already. So badly. Need to finish book. Need to make sure I have someone for watering garden this summer so nothing dies. I don’t like death. Oh I am a little nervous about that speech. What if I barf? Did I set the alarm for 4:30? Am I as happy as I think I am? What if we let down the entire rowing team by over sleeping? Do my children do too much? Do I do too much? Am I listening to my gut? Where does God fit in? Why don’t I make him more important? Why don’t I do more? Why are my jeans tight in new places? 50. Really? Do I like who I was today? How can I be better tomorrow? I can’t believe I burned dinner. Why did I say that to her? Slow down. Hurry up. Work form a place of love. Don’t be little. I need new running shoes. Am I proud of myself? I should bleed the rads. Did I laugh today? Shoot I forgot to go to that thing. The shed needs cleaning out. I need white paint. The car is making a bad noise. I don’t have time to volunteer  for anything – isn’t that crazy? The squirrels ate all the tulip bulbs- I want to shoot them for it. Am I a good friend? And the racoons too. Love the smell of spring. Windows need washing. How will I accomplish all the stuff I have to tomorrow? Breathe deeply. Am I a good person? Look at the time. Holy shit. I am going to be exhausted tomorrow.

I can’t figure out why I can’t sleep sometimes.

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